The right-wing extremists comments on document.no

After reading Anders Breivik, or Andy Brewick (or what it is he calls himself for his english-speaking "crowd"), comments on a "discussion forum" called "Document.no" it naturally made me sick to my stomach! His retoric is out of this world, in the form that it is SO selfcontradicting and just plain WRONG!!

Anyway, my short comment about what I am feeling SO strongly now after reading about his hate towards women, muslims, multiculturalism etc, is that I am prouder than EVER that my fiance and companion through 5 years now, is the product of a lovely woman from South Korea, falling in love and having a child with an equally lovely Norwegian man! So; YES, that makes MY GUY half norwegian and half Korean, and OUR children, which will be joining us in this world when the time for that is right, will be 1/4 Korean, in addition to being 3/4 norwegian. I CAN NOT WAIT!!! How beautiful they will be <3 The most important thing in my eyes will be to let them get to know ALL there is to know about their Asian heritage, and their grandmother will naturally be the BEST person to teach them :)

Most importantly, I started loving my fiance and life-companion that one night when we first met five years ago, purely based on HIM!! Who he was, what he was doing, what he believed in, his unbelieveable beauty (in know I'm partial, but he his seriously the most hansome guy walking the face of the earth!!) and his loving kindness. Race, and culture played a VERY small part I have to tell you. All of that was just invisible.Though, as the years has gone by, we have dived into the adventure that culture-exploration is, and we love how this is teaching us SO much MORE about life than we would EVER imagine possible!!

It is very hard for a person like me to see, to understand, what for, and why the "They-took-our-jobs"/nazi/extremist is saying and writing the things he does, but that may all be part of my naivety. For all that is good, and all that is holy, I hope I never loose that small part of my naivety, that my hope and belief in the race; "EVERYBODY" won't ever fade!

Lets all be strong, lets all vote the hell out of every election coming up for ever and ever ( ;-P), and let us never allow fear to trumph LOVE <3

(gotta <3 it!)

Les fraises et les baisers

Fraises au sucre, c'est comme des baisers de l'homme que j'aime

Love or revenge???

I just have to ask myself if we should be a little bit proud of ourselves, as a people! The reason why is that compared to what happened in september 2001, we are not yelling and screaming for revenge, but instead we focus on lovig STRONGER, on loving our familys and loving our neighbour! Young teenangers has been seen on television saying that now we have to "skjerpe oss"/ pull ourselves together so that we can show eachother love, and show it a whole lot! We have been on memory-markings for several days, and the love that flows through people, people we did not know even know at all, was out of this world!! In the words of the norwegian AUF-girl; if one man can create this much hate, just imagine how much love all of US can create! 

I am excperiencing a peace and a wish for peace, aswell as a demand for an even stronger democracy! Sadly these events bring my thougts back to Bush Jr., his words right after the terror; "We are going to catch them, dead or alive''' and also the shameful quote; "you are either with us or else you are against us"! Not exceactly a message of love and strenghtening a democracy, eh?

Our Norwegian prime minister, aswell as the other people that has been affected, or targeted the worst that bloody day, are persons tat are big enough to NOT go the route of revenge, but instead repeteadly saying that THIS IS THE TIME TO STRENGHTEN our democraty!! I weep for the Americans that had a wild-wild-west president that were leading a people in hate instead of love, and that in the aftermath started DAMAGING the American democracy, with laws outside of the constitution, starting SEVERAL wars etc. I wonder, just asa side-thought, if it were a democratic president during 9.11, that things would have 

been less COLD??

Bush: "We will take him, dead or alive, lets hunt them down"

Stoltenberg: "The answer to violence is even more democracy"

Rose March!!

Today, tomorrow and wednesday, there will be marches with lights, but especially ROSES in respect and memory of the gruesome scenes that played out, just a stone-throw away from our new home at the country, and as respect for the bombing in Oslo aswell!! We will change it up a bit, and carry roses in different colours. I kinda love that !!

One of our close relatives, not even 11 years watched his father being shot as one of the first at Utøya, and the little boty pleeded for his life to the desperado, saying that you have killed my father now, can you please not shoot me, so that I can have a longer life than what you want to give me? Amazing what a boy of 10 can be able to say and do, right?? I wil not tell more of the terrible details of this case in particullar, but having experienced loss in an extreme way personally, me and my close family have just visited the family which are also our neighbours, just to give them  a HUG!! I just remember when the tragedy struck me and my family over 15 years ago (I will MAYBE tell that story... maybe not, I have to feel upon it for a while), people in our community avoided us, maybe because they didnt know what to say in such a tragedy, but I remember that when people crossed the street because they saw us because they were afraid of the sorrow and the unbelieveable tragedy, and how to handle it.. THAT kind of action hurt more than ANYTHING. So it was important for us to visit our closely affected family just to HUG them <3

And a lesson for anyone who's willing to listen; words are not always necessary. Just being ther, holding someone and giving them a good hug is often sufficient!!

I miss my mother in law. I wish she was back in Norway. I miss her, and I miss visiting her with her son!! Amazing what shit does to our perspectives ;)

<3 

I love my entire exctended family!!

HOPE

“Man can live about forty days without food, about three days without water, about eight minutes without air, but only for one second without hope”

 

Norwegian right-wing extremist's manifesto

Oh yeah, he (the terrorist) has released a manifest, where a lot of what he touches upon are kind of a warning of what was going to happen here in our peace-loving country, Norway, last friday! Why did not a right wing extremist like Brewick get "picked up" by the right departements within the police? Can it be that the muslim-hate and fear, started by the Bush II government in the U.S, that has blindfolded all western communities of the threat of the neo-nazi type extremists like Andrew Brewick/Anders Brevik? Any regrets? Will anyone step forward and be real men/women and take some responsibility for the fact that the last Bush administration (amongst others) made the word terrorist synonymous with muslims? History will tell us; NO, that will be "brushed under the rug"! Sad, sad :(

If I personally have taken ONE important thing, above anything else, from the terror our very small, diplomatically and peace-making country has experienced, it is that the fear is a lower power, and living life is SO important that I will live my life like there's no tomorrow - EVERYDAY! I will learn EVERYTHING I've ever dreamed of learning, and I will not let laziness or secondguessing EVER take place in my life, ever agan! I will live like never before, like there's no tomorrow. <3 <3 <3 <3 I will forever focus all my strength of living life, and meeting my fellow citizens and people all over the world with the love and warmth we as brothers and sisters DESERVE!!!

खुशी अच्छे स्वास्थ्य और एक बुरा स्मृति है.

WTF

I am SO, SO incredably sad, sorry and shocked by the evil that struck hundreds of lives yesterday in Oslo and Utøya.I am shocked though, by peoples shortsitedness in the aftermath of the bombing and shooting in Oslo yesterday. Now I read demands for the death-penalty and total disregard of our Norwegian constitution!! I am appaled by how some "hotheads" by "feeling like it's THEM the terror happened to" are prepared to throw our entire moral center out the window! I feel that a lifetime in prison, getting PUNISHED and having to LIVE WITH what you have done is a far better way to sentence someone. In Norway we stopped killing people in the name of the law in 1902. Do we really want to regress back to that?What else then should we look the other way about, ethically? When would it stop, and arent the ones killing off people "in the name of the law" just as much of killers themselves, and the ones who condemnd people in that way accessories to murder? I guess I sound like a hippie to some people, but SERIOUSLY, lets not let our beauty that is our intelligens and ability to reason, rot away!!

Sad

I am tired of learning bad stories and lies about myself. Supposedly told by someone very close to me, when I'm out and about! Is this a low selfesteem-thing, keep others down to feel better or more interresting about yourself? Is this because I haven't lived in the country, but away in different cities for SO long, and am interresting to "use" as a "shit-story" when in need of a good "shit-story"? Anyway, I'm back now, and for my part I completely forgive this person for the hurt I have been caused by being painted as something I'm not!! I just feel kinda sad about it, and wish I knew the reason for it!

 Over to other, more important things; I think, in the aftermath of the Oslo-bombings and shootings, that we should not be cowardly little scardy-cats and STAY INSIDE (Ooooo, HELP, HELP). No, for f**** sake, NOW is the most perfect time to show the world how we live our lives in joy and harmony!! Lets not be afraid people! And lets be honest aswell. It always helps us in the long run!

I love my life, and I love my family, with all their querkes and imperfections, and I love my fiance and I love my "piss-ant, redneck-town" ;-P

Til alle som ser OOslo-22.07 som en perfekt anledning til innvandringsfiendtlig bullshit:

Til Ola Nordmann: Man har ikke automatisk svart belte i bombe-faget selv om man har turban, eller vært noen ekstra timer i solen....

Terrorist attack (?) in Norway

30 minutes ago a bomb went of in the offices of the norwegian government. The explosion was powerful, and windows has been blown out over a big area. Chaos and despair in Oslo right now. Looks like the oil and energy department along with the prime ministers office has been the hardest "hit". Police has closed off the area, and there are speculations of more bombs...?!!

Water loving cats

Yoga, flowers housecleaning and work, work, work!"!!

Today I started the day with doing the laundry, amongst other things I washed two new dresses I have sown :-) The sun is shining like never before, so I put the newly washed clothes i a basket and went outside to hang them up to dry in the fresh outdoors <3

Life suddenly felt very good and neat ;)

Then I proceeded to do one hour of intense yoga. I have started a new kind of yoga rehersals, something exciting I have learned from a woman from Indi who of course is a serious professional, AAfter sweating out all the toxins I meditated for about 15 minutes, it was a good day for meditation, since I managed to leave my body for a while!!

Now I have cut 20 roses or so, placed them in different vases and have made our home even more beautiful :)

My fiance is washing the floors with pine-tree smelling soap, and it is SOOOOO sweet to be in our house at the moment:)

After I have finished writing I am going to oil our veranda/porch, in just a skimpy shorts and a bikini ;-P I told you the weather was AMAZEBALLS :)

A couple of days ago we bought our fifth engagement rings (since we are engaged to be married, we have started our own tradition where we give eachother a new engagement-ring each year, every year up to the year and day we are getting married). I got a ring with the "G"key symbol, or "G-nøkkel" as it is called in norwegian, and Roy got the typical lebanese ring (the one in four pieces that is almost impossible to put together if you take it apart,,, ;-P ). I will put some pictures here of the symbol on my ring and one of Roys ring!

Symbolet on my engagement-ring #5

 Roy's engagement-ring #5

Always desire to learn something useful.

 A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others., and by the way;

Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does.!! 

As I am sitting here by the piano, learning, excperimentig and creating new stuff, a quote by Ella Wheeler Wilcox comes to mind;  

              Always continue the climb. It is possible for you to do whatever you choose, if you first get 

              to know who you are and are willing to work with a power that is greater than ourselves to do it

The house is still FULL of lillys, the smell is HEAVEN!!! Composing, kickstarting the intuitioun and everything that makes me feel like that I am a part of sometthing REALLY big :-D To be creating on a level like this is worth a celebration!!

Now it is "loofa-time" ;-P, Getting a real good scrub, and testing out my new fantastic make up and skin care products . Then I'll just put on  a very, VERY cute "something", and that is JUST for my fiances eyes to see ;)

Before I met my fiance, I'd never fallen in love. I'd just stepped in it a few times before. 

NOT THE SAME!!!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      

After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music. Then, being deeply loved by him gives me strength, while loving him deeply gives me courage.

So finally, in death; we stop sinning...suddenly. 

...

Creativity and love

I have really discovered the importance of SLEEP, eating right, telling the person I love, how much I love him, and I am respecting the creativity when it comes around!! 
It is a big, BIG part of creating for me, to write down, record or draw when I get an idea!! I have STRUGGELED with this for a long, long time, but now I carry a notebook and a recorder with me everywhere, so that when an idea is born I can record it at once!! 
It is kinda like; if I don't record my ideas, they stop, or they just do not come around as often, but when I do record the ideas they just come and come and come! VERY happy about this! 
I have also started writing a dream diary, and I interpret what I have written everyday... also very helpful creatively. 
So, now I have started playing the piano for real:) I am learning very fast, I am shocked at how fast I am learning, and I have already written two melodies. I have also written more lyrics, and I am SO looking forward to recording it. This is a very exciting period! 
Another great thing I am doing to help the creativity along is that I have a bunch of A3 paper, so that when I see something in the form of a picture, I can draw it down, and usually that starts a new lyric or a new poem:) 
My boyfriend and I are both writing and creating a lot, we enjoy ourselves a lot with great dinners everyday, in the weekends with a good syrah, and just being happy and loving eachother! I think I am starting a spanish course in a month or two aswell! 
Djeez, I seriously recommend that everyone that needs a kickstart moves out to the country-side;P

<3 The country, great food, telling people you love how much you love them, wine, music and art <3

High on sunday 51

A monkey knows how you'll react
Creating want by holding back
Some reverse pyromaniac
Let me try, baby, try

I brought my window up and then
I turned my back to lure you in
Do I fall through what I might of been
Let me try, baby, try

Baby please let me begin
Let me be your heroine
Hate the sinner but love the sin
Let me be your heroine

We have crossed the rubicon
The ship awash our rudder gone
The rats have fled but I'm hanging on
Let me try, baby, try

Baby please let me begin
Let me be your heroine
Hate the sinner but love the sin
Let me be your heroine

Humpty Dumpty

Say you were split, you were split in fragments
and none of the pieces would talk to you
Wouldn't you want to be who you had been
well, baby I want that, too

So better take the keys and drive forever
Staying won't put these futures back together
All the perfect drugs and superheroes
wouldn't be enough to bring me up to zero

Baby you're great, you've been more than patient
saying it's not a catastrophe
but I'm not the girl you once put your faith in
just someone who looks like me

So better take the keys and drive forever
Staying won't put these futures back together
All the perfect drugs and superheroes
wouldn't be enough to bring me up to zero

So get out while you can

Get out while you can
Baby, I'm pouring quicksand
And sinking is all I had planned
So better just go

Oh, better take the keys and drive forever
Staying won't put these futures back together
All the perfect drugs and superheroes
wouldn't be enough to bring me up to zero

All the king's horses and all the king's men
couldn't put baby together again
All the king's horses and all the king's men
couldn't put baby together again
- Aimee Mann <3

Tennis

... boring or arousing??

Ironi!!?

Jeg ser 1998 filmen "Under Siege". VELDIG vanskelig å se denne historien, i en hollywood-film, som jeg antar millioner så i U.S, og forstå HVORDAN "the Patriot Act" faktisk ble en lov?? Som de sier i filmen, det er ikke et større moralsk tap for en nasjon enn å sette inn millitæret mot sitt eget folk. Alle disse terrorist-filmene som har blitt laget de siste 15 årene... jeg føler hjertet mitt knuse litt for hver eneste gang.

Frykt. Det beste våpen, både mot fiender og venner.

Er det rart man vil vekk fra alt? Er det rart man vil tilbake 100 år i tid, bare for freden i sinnets skyld? Leve på en gård uten å forsøples av all elektronikk,i stand til å overleve uten alt som gjør oss så avhengige? Hva skjer hvis noen virkelig vil skade "leve-settet" vårt i den vestlige verden? Jeg mener VIRKELIG skade? Vil vi klare å plukke oss selv opp i en slik hypotetisk situasjon? Jeg skal iallefall lære meg å overleve. Overleve i naturen. Overleve som moralsk sjel. Se forbi frykt, behandle redsel med kjærlighet!

Lilly

I have been kinda sick for almost one week. The absolutely WORST thing I think, for myself, I can do is to just creep up under the covers and stay there. Soooo, I have been trying to do yoga, although my energy-level is NOT what it usually is, but then we just cut down the yoga-time, it is just doing it, if only for 15 minutes, that counts when I am in a crappy "mood". I have also been trying to take a trip on the bicycle once a day, like going to the store and back, just because it's the LAST thing I want to do, and that's just why I have to do it!! PUSH IT, PUSH IT GOOD ;-p

The really crazy thing is that I have to have lilly's, the flower ( ;-P ), because that just makes me think of something really beautifuL and  perfect, that I have to try to emulate to feel better myself. It seriously works!! So I recommend that everyone that feels crappy, has a bad day, or maybe is in "that time of the month"-mode, goes out, buys themselves some lilly's, and they will for sure feel just a little bit better!!

I have also discovered, though I already kinda knew, that it is when you feel the worst, you become the most creative, so I have written two new lyrics, have got the melody to one of them, and am working on some new knitting-designs! I have re-discovered knitting... and I LOVE IT!!

So, if you have a bad day, buy yourself some lilly's, and you'll get what I am trying to say!!

Norwegian life