Compared to my behavior towards most of my exes, I have behaved like an angel in this relationship!! It really is a love-story I only thought excisted in fairytales (cheesy, I know, but it's the hard truth!)!
I know this is the man I will make BEAUTIFUL babies with, and I've NEVER wanted to be a mother before I met Roy, and there is just so much more I am discovering about myself because I'm in love with this dude... THIS exact dude:-P I am sure it is his love towards me that is "changing" me into a better Ellen, I can even tell for myself that I am changing into a more patient and calm person, and people are usually the most blind when it comes to themself... right?? But I can really tell that I am a more peaceful girl!
So, after waking up from the BEST dream, about my man( <3 ), my father called, he wanted to drive us to the "sentrum" of the small place we're living, because it was raining, raining HARD, but we were ready to open our umbrella-ella-ella-ellas, and just walk (why the h*** not, I think one big reason people all over the western world are so fat and borderline morbidly obese in some cases, are because we all think that without a car we can't excist, so we drive everywhere because it really is convenient, but if everybody just got up off of their asses we would have a MUCH healthier population!).
So, dad buys us apple-pie and coffe, we sit and chat for a while and then my little sister, Ine, comes and drops a huge bomb!! She is going to be a mommy for the second time, and Roy and I are going to be aunt and uncle for another cute, funny angel. I, off course started bawling (quite embarrassing, but the first time, when she told me she was going to be a mother the FIRST time, I cried so hard I literally fell on the floor crying!!)
Hehe, somebody are more emotional than others I guess :-D I just LOVE my "baby-sister" and I'm SO happy for her!! I'm trying to talk her into giving me one baby if she gets twins;-P She's down with that! (Ironi, for those who didn't get it!) But seriously, I am so curious to see my own babies aswell, when they come. I just know I will fall head over heels in love with them. Wonder what the product of a very tiny red-headed girl with brown eyes and milky-white skin and a half norwegian-half south korean BEAUTIFUL boy will look like? I guess the asian genes (from Roy) are the most dominant, and I SO hope that our children will resemble him, and get some of the korean "trademarks"!!
Hihi, so, there I got the baby-crazy talk out of the way :-)
I stopped crying happy-tears after a while, then I bought a whole lot of yarn and stuff for knitting hats, leggings, arm-warmers etc. Finally we went to the place where you buy the really hardcore farmer-stuff (you know; John Deer overalls, rubberboots, and everything you need as a farmer), a place called "Felleskjøpet", and there we bought rain-outfits. Green, and looks extremely cool ;-P I promise pictures will follow!!
Now I am enjoying some ice-water, cleaning some floors, and are about to start knitting something fab!!
And in all of this, Roy is doing the dishes, and are going to make dinner right after he is finished!! I am a spoiled little princess, and my entire family is jealus of me :-) (But, without going into details, I REALLY spoil him too <3 )
I love my fionce'. He is THE most handsome man I've EVER seen, ever met... and he's smart too, AND, the creme' de la creme'; the dude loves art!! JACKPOT ;-P
I know I am lucky to have found such a pure, real and STRONG love, and the next time I meditate/pray, I will wish this feeling of love for everybody who's got great and pure karma!
I am a HUGE believer in karma, by the way!!
Do something nice for someone else, and receive a feeling of a heart that grows. It's the best feeling I know!
I am fighting every day to keep my "monsters" in their cage (quote Johnny Cash), and I am doing a pretty good job so far (if I may say so myself). It is challenging as h***, I have to be strong, it doesn't just "flow", but the hard work PAYS! And as I said; I am receiving a kind of love I've never conceived of!! So that makes me think that I am doing something right, to deserve this amount of love every day.
So, I'm: HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY <3 <3 <3 <3
